Bittersweet day. I knew someday that this would come. After much heavy contemplating, praying, wondering, worrying, asking and questioning I have decided to start my job as a Full Time Mommy. The last couple weeks have just tore me up. I LOVE my job as a designer, it's a passion, I will carry with me forever. And when I say passion, I eat.sleep.breath.think. design ALL THE TIME, my mind never seems to stop. Creating and making spaces beautiful, seeing clients surroundings become something that they dreamed of become a reality is what I live for. Like I said-A passion, and something I WILL return to!
My girls-My sweet goose gals, friends for a lifetime. I can sincerely say I love each one of them so much! They are my second family and I have had such a great time. Not a lot of people can say the LOVED every single person they worked with & LOVED doing their job, but I can. I can.
These Ladies are each individually so extremely talented, amazing and wonderful. I learned so much from each of them. I love to laugh, and I laughed every single day at work. Love you girls, I will miss working with you beyond measure. Thank you so much for being who you are.
It's funny, I have played this tug-of-war in my head...
Love my job-crazy to let it go for now-want to be there for my boys-I can't leave, built this career for years and I am going to give it up just like that?-This is who I am and what I have worked so hard for-it's what I live for....and on and on. so SO HARD!
This is one of the hardest decisions I have had to make. I think to myself I am totally nuts & What am I doing???!! But then I see my beautiful children. Brayden blowing kisses to me through the window, looking at Greyson's big beautiful eyes and just staring at him thinking I don't want to miss a moment. Being a Mom is such a blessing & an opportunity to focus fully on my boys.
This is a life changing decision, completely different then what I am used to. I have ALWAYS worked, it makes me feel accomplished, BUT who's to say being a Mom is not being accomplished? I am sure it will be difficult but I can't second guess my decision. At the end of the day I am just grateful. My life has slowed down, I am SO used to going 100 miles an hour and LOVED it!! But now, Mommy comes first. Total lifestyle change.
Along the way I have FOUND out a few things about myself.
~FOUND...I can set a goal and achieve it and at times exceed it!
Knowledge. Learned new skills and put them to use.
I can be a daymaker.
Friends to last a lifetime-My Goose Gals
Hardwork pays off.
Focus,discipline, and responsibility.
I could conquer fears of "I can't do it"
I can!
Beautiful furniture and accessories at a killer price(kicking myself..agh,will miss that)
Moments of joy
It's ok to cry at work :)
Unpacking new product is like Christmas morning!
My obsession of glass jars.
Stress can be a good thing.
The pleasure of seeing a perfect room.
Unbelievable Customer Service Skills (I don't handle poor service well now)
Celebrating Groundhogs Day,"Smoke Breaks", and the way of the beaver :)
LAUGHTER!
Friday's will ALWAYS be "floor day" to me.
I love fabric-everything about it.
I can lift and carry downstairs A LOT of furniture :)
I love to draft, it's soothing.
~BUT, most of all I FOUND myself.
Never lost, always found something great...
ALL my love to the BG and cheers to Mommyhood!
